It’s the day before the day

Tomorrow is departure day for the grand adventure. This will be the longest I have been away from my loved ones, including my dog Bella. There is a lot going through my mind right now, and my feelings are all over the place. I always imagined myself traveling with my partner, and be one of those couples who conquer the world together. But life has a funny way of throwing you lemons. These past months has been chaotic and stressful to say the least. One day I was blissfully ignorant and happy, and the next alone and heartbroken. All of a sudden I had to learn how to be a solo person again, which is challenging when there is so much going on. When the person you used to lean on, suddenly is not there anymore. It’s hard as shit to deal with the aftermath of a breakup, like finances and paperworks without falling apart. But I choose to believe that when you go through one of life’s challenges, you come out stronger. I firmly believe life only hands you these lemons, because you are strong enough to make more than just lemonade. Going through a breakup like this, is exactly the time to rediscover who you are and who you want to be. I know I am a person who gives it my all when in a relationship, but I tend to lose myself. Everything becomes a «we». There is nothing wrong with becoming a «we», but it’s important to not lose your anchor in all the romance.

When I started planning this trip, I was set upon South America first, and then Asia. But as time went by, I had this urge to rediscover my roots and religion, which is Buddhism. Buddhism is not a religion per se, it’s really more a way of life, guidelines on how to live life more peacefully. Even priests around the world practice the way of buddhism, to become a better self. This journey will not only be about traveling, and gaining new experiences. But also a path of self discovery and healing. And what better way to start the healing process than with some family time in Thailand, and some R&R on the beach, with my best friend. So what can you expect to see these next 12 months? Well according to my hysterical, but oh so loving mom, I will probably get robbed, killed or die from drinking water with ice cubes. How much ground I will actually cover is uncertain, but there is some places and experiences I can’t leave unexplored. Here is the top 8 from my bucket list:

Now I have to get my ass in gear, and finish my packing. The rest of the day I will meet up with some friends, and spend some quality time with my parents. Because tomorrow is the big day, and I can already feel the warmth of my grandmas hug.

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